Night Owl

3:45 A.M can't sleep. For some reason the last 3 or 4 days have been particularly challenging regarding sleep pattern management. I work graveyards on many weekends, kind of seasonally in that there will be months in a row it's almost every weekend then a few months with hardly any work. Currently it is more often than not.

I've been doing this for years and generally haven't had too much difficulty switching sleep patterns from night owl to morning riser... Until now it seems. Although there are other factor that may be contributing or causing this sorta-insomnia. I have low thyroid and recently started taking pills for it after about a 2 month break in taking them (couldn't afford the pills and was getting better so became too optimistic). Plus currently I'm in major limbo with career path and life choices; all of which add tension to my already taxed love relationship. Stress sucks. I'm managing everything rationally and wit direct action but still, it's a lot.

How do people do it? Those high functioning, multi tasking, über busy and nearly always up beat people, how do they do it? Super foods and smoothies? Demands that if not met will cause their world to crumble? What is the magic combo that could arrive me in the same car pool as those gung-ho achievers?

I'm not sure I'd do it even if I had a magic pill that would instantly transform me into one of those peep. I like the night scene, I can hear myself think and I feel at more home or at ease in the night. Just me and the sounds that make up the silence. I seem to get more writing done and more art made when I'm up late. Perhaps I ought to just go with it and just make it work by planning my to do list around the hours I feel most alert. That seems wrong though, feels deviant, defiant even, society wants me to fit into a schedule where I'm awake during shopping hours right? Screw that. For days now I've forced myself out of bed in the morning and into bed at night where I read or surf internet on my smart phone. Each day I become so unbelievably tired in the early afternoon that I feel drugged or something. Seriously can not function for love or money not even with caffeine chasing sugar as a little pick me up.

Can it just be my rhythm? Are thee really night people and day peeps? Don't we all need sunshine, isn't the natural way to sleep at night? I'll ask the Internet - it knows everything ;)